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besides all my favorite dancer friends, and my inspirations and good friends.
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MARIA LOOK! BANANANANANANANA NUT
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TANYA LOOK!
always
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BRIANNA LOOK!
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i peeled the dead skin off of my big toe, i ended up tearing my skin on my toe and it looks like a cut. it really hurts if i stand on it :( i can’t dance…
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honestly this year almost everyday during practices at diversity movement this school year… i always told myself “i don’t think there was really ever a day that this year was at least good as last year’s DM.” but just last week, there was finally at least like two or three days when it finally matched it. its just really great working with my kids now. i love them all so much and we’ve been working really well together that last week. the energy and focus was good. this year, we’ve done at least double from what we did last year. i’ve made so many dances this year and last year combined. last year we only performed six of my dances, this year we’ve performed at least nine and doing three more of mine which makes it 12! :D that was actually one of my goals for this school year to do at least double of what i finished last year. i feel truly blessed to get all this work done, especially when it’s during my senior year and despite all the hardships each and everyone us are going through.
the only problem is myself. most of the time when i’m by myself, i always have that urge to create MORE and MORE and MORE. but i tend to get scared for some reason, or i get lazy. i always want that quality piece that will be good as a workshop and is also doable for performance. i tend to think too much in the process of creating something new, and sometimes get lost into my strings of thoughts. all of it is really a blur… i just also tend to be distracted from little kid things like playing video games and little card games. tekken 6, tetris, and yu gi oh, it’s fun playing that stuff, but i need to know my limitations on that stuff and i need to stay more productive. i know without a doubt i’ve been playing these games literally for like over one or two hours, and sometimes three. i just need to drop all this stuff. i know i go overboard with playing and i REALLY REALLY need to control that. i know i can do it. its easy, i’m just making it hard for myself.
i’m currently in the process of trying to make new things. idk what my next songs will be for DM, for a workshop, or even just for myself. i’ve asked the same question to mariel martin, jeka kalotkin, shaun evaristo, and patrick cruz “what do you do when you’re stuck?” and most of what i remember, i just gotta let go and don’t think. just have fun and listen to the music and not worry how you look. thats what matters the most. i’m really gonna challenge myself once i’m outta high school. maybe one or two dances a week. maybe… we’ll see. and i’m gonna train my body as well. i really need it. i know i can do this. tanya says i can do it. and niko says this too, “you’ll come up with something.” i know i can. i know i will. the turn out will hopefully be a good one. can’t wait for the next concept. gonna be way more abstract. then the next one’s gonna be chill hard piece. maybe i’ll look back at this post and say “hey… i remember when i felt that way. :P”
i’m also in the process of making another performance. its turning out real good so far. but this week i know might be a challenge. we’ll see. i’d rather stay more focused on the show than a new piece. but still, doesn’t hurt to be flexible. hmm… sometimes it is :P haha. we’ll see what’ll happen for this week. can’t wait
based on who came today… it seems like not a lot of people don’t really wanna do the spring rally… DM is kinda slackin on a lot of things lately. nobody has been notifying each other of what’s up with everybody even when i called for mandatory practices. i understand some people’s exceptions such as cyber high and sprained ankles, busy lives, and other kinds of dilemmas, but the rest makes me question “do you really wanna dance? or do you wanna just tell me you wanna dance?” but that’s just what i think in my head if there is no other exception. i’ll always understand. i’m actually really thankful for the people who have been making the practices. if anything, i’ll work with a small unit instead of a huge 27+ people horde of people. so we’ll see… i’m just down to make this show come to life. gonna post a reflection of this year soon… i have so much to say about this year.
